Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Time for a Change

Warning: This post may contain TMI's

This evening, as I was about to get in the shower, I took off my shirt and looked in the mirror. What did I see? Something I definitely was not pleased with...something I had never seen before...something that needed to change. I have a gut! I am a small-framed person and have always been petite but for the last year I have gained at least 15 pounds. This weight correlates pretty closely with the time in which my boyfriend and I began dating. I know when people are happy and in love they tend to gain weight, but this is not cute. I am 5'3" and 150 lbs and while that may seem pretty average (for an African American woman) it is not. Am I fat? No. Am I overweight? Yes. I should be about 20 pounds lighter than I am. I carry my weight very well so people look at me and don't believe that I am 150 pounds, but the scales do not lie. Most of my weight is in my thighs and butt and the rest of it is now migrating to my stomach area.

I was on a roll as far as working out and eating well but the last month I have completely slacked off and gone on an eating spree. I have lost all of the progress that I made, and so quickly. It is difficult not to be sad by it but I had an episode in front of my boyfriend in July that was quite embarrassing and I won't allow myself to get that upset over something I have control over. I am not comfortable with myself right now but there is something I can (and will) do about it!

This weekend my boyfriend and I are going food shopping. We have created a semi-permanent grocery list with healthy foods as well as a few cheat foods. One thing is for sure, I need to stop eating out so much. That is probably my biggest down fall but I am going to nip that in the bud because this tummy has GOT TO GO!

I am going to try BlaqKofi's wheatgrass smoothies to jump start my mornings, have a SmartOne or salad for lunch, and have a home-cooked meal for dinner. In addition to changing my eating habits I am getting back into the gym at least 3 days a week. Wish me luck!


lovelylocks said...

Cheers to making healthy choices! I just joined the gym too. I'm training with a trainer, and planning to work out 3-4 times a I should be sexy(er) by summer lol. Good luck with your weight loss goals too :o)

CarmenNC said...

Try 230 on 5'4.

Au Naturale said...

Lovely, that trainer is going to work you out girl! i tried a trainer and didn't really like it, i would much rather work out on my own lol. my goal is definitely to be down 15 pounds by the summer though! good luck!

Meikmeika said...

I know exactly how you're feeling! I've been complaining about my weight for the last 4.5 years, a half a year after the boyfriend and I got together. What's up with this add-a-man weight???!!! And it's taking me forever to get rid of it, then again I keep sabotaging myself.

Instead of beating yourself up for going off track, commend yourself for realizing it early in the game when it's 20lbs you're trying to lose. Also, the weight will come off so much faster than it was put on.

Good Luck!!! You'll definitely reach your goal by summer, if not, much sooner.

Naturally Sophia said...

Work it out mama!?! I feel the same way.

N'Drea ~ the Storyteller said...

Awww, you're just happy and contented. It happens. But do what you need to do for your own happiness. At the end of the day, the only thing that matters is being happy in your own skin. Cheering you on for your wellness goals.

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Tonia said...

I want to see the retightening!! Did Denise do it? Can you post pictures?? Please?
And girl, you are beautiful!!!